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Thursday, 19 November 2009 , 21:33
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I am feeling really lonely right now. Perhaps that's what I really wanna feel. Though it's really nice to have friends around you who cares for you, i guess it just sucks being lonely. I just need my time alone. I know that my recent posts are not as interesting as the previous ones. Within these months, all are about self-reflection. Isn't it great? A person like me is only to reflect on self. Im losing readers. But I have no choice. It may sounds weird, but I actually wished that I was kept busy instead of free. It may be tiring to be busy, but at least im happy to know that there's really something for me to do and im at least needed. Maybe I should stop posting my self reflection up here. Though there's really no one here to read my blog post. Just in case.
Let's start from yesterday. Had Drama early in the morning. At 8.30am. But decided to slack cos i dun wanna reach sch too early, I WILL FEEL LONELY... So slack playing com until around 7.45. Then at 8pm got a damn phone call. who will call me in such an early in the morning? must be a wrong number! the number does not appear from my caller ID. But I still pick up the call cos...i dunno. Just for some reasons I decided to answer that call. It was from the school; mdm zhang. She asked me if im free on that day not. I told her i will be going back to sch anyway.
"Great! You can help me prepare for the open house!" Bad mistake. Real bad mistake. Don't get my wrong, not that I don't wanna help her or anything, it's just that I wanted to get home immediately after Drama cos I was feeling really tired and I don't wanna spend an extra hour in school or smth. I've spent my whole night before crying my eyes out due to some personal problems.
1. I was REALLY, REALLY tired and I just REALLY, REALLY wanted to get home as soon as possible.
2. I don't want anyone to see my RED, SWOLLEN, BLOODSHOT eyes cos as soon as they see that, QUESTIONS WILL BUZZ IN NON-STOP.
Did I ever mention the fact where I am very stubborn, that made most ppl pissed off by my character. During Drama was great. Met Alex, Rashidah, Cheryl and Gavina at the library. Alex and Rashidah were chatting with Auntie Anita. Gotta bad feeling at first. I've pon the previous rehearsal and I lied that I was in malaysia. The real reason is: I woke up late and I don't wanna go to school alone, it's really raining and even if I take the bus, I will still get caught. What's easier is to just say that I'm not home. I stole that excuse from Rashidah.
Ms Joyce came in no later than us. She gave us instructions and so on. I wasn't THAT well-prepared. Papers or pens didn't come along wif me. Im alone. Thx goodness Alex had extras and borrowed from her.
I was in luck indeed. I became the host on 26 November from 3-5pm. Thanks goodness Shirleen was before me, at least I have a demo. But tasks are still tasks, lines are still lines.
"Dear ladies and gentlemen. We are from the Drama Club. At our Drama Club, we learn to speak and perform confidently. We also learn how to use our creativity to act and improvise. On top of that, we had also picked up leadership skills in coordinating events.
Now, our students will perform a mime for you. A mime is an act that involves only actions and no words. If you are the first person who correctly guessed what the mime is about, you will win a small prize. Ready? Let's start."
What's totally challenging is that eye contact with the visitors. Act professionally. I guess it's just too impossible as we're lack of practices. It's just 2 more rehearsals before actual day on 28 Nov. Later performing a short skit. Cheryl the narrator; Fatin and Shirleen the princesses; Gavin the King; Alex and I the princes. We had a good teasing on Gavin later on. He was the one who simply wrote his name as Gavina. Though we had a tiring day just on Drama Ms Joyce treat us on some tibits. Gavina the sicko pervert! He cut a BOOB outta the paper and he wanted to SUCK it... Then Mdm Zhang came to the noticeboard find me. Haizz, went with her to the dunno wad room. Loaded the water bottles and went to the sickbay in the office to pack the goodie bags. File, water bottle, notebook and badge. Ya, that's EVERYTHING in the goodie bag. I DUN WANNA DO IT >.< but thinking that it would be actually added to my CIP hours, I GIVE IN, I GIVE UP.
When going home at the bus-stop, met Ms Joyce. She said that she may be our literature teacher next year! Hooray! Then she said we're doing a book on Billy and...(i forgot) but it's basically about a boy with a passion and talent of dancing. Took 175 with her. Told her about Alice Nine. So handsome...I'm totally enchanted by their charm...hAHA! Yeah, I think that's about it. My handphone batt is running low and I nid to charge it. Shit that damnit I cannot find the charger. No choice. Only can use my brother's phone. He so many phone sehh. But...haizz, nvm.
Afterall, it's only an illusion...
Let's start from yesterday. Had Drama early in the morning. At 8.30am. But decided to slack cos i dun wanna reach sch too early, I WILL FEEL LONELY... So slack playing com until around 7.45. Then at 8pm got a damn phone call. who will call me in such an early in the morning? must be a wrong number! the number does not appear from my caller ID. But I still pick up the call cos...i dunno. Just for some reasons I decided to answer that call. It was from the school; mdm zhang. She asked me if im free on that day not. I told her i will be going back to sch anyway.
"Great! You can help me prepare for the open house!" Bad mistake. Real bad mistake. Don't get my wrong, not that I don't wanna help her or anything, it's just that I wanted to get home immediately after Drama cos I was feeling really tired and I don't wanna spend an extra hour in school or smth. I've spent my whole night before crying my eyes out due to some personal problems.
1. I was REALLY, REALLY tired and I just REALLY, REALLY wanted to get home as soon as possible.
2. I don't want anyone to see my RED, SWOLLEN, BLOODSHOT eyes cos as soon as they see that, QUESTIONS WILL BUZZ IN NON-STOP.
Did I ever mention the fact where I am very stubborn, that made most ppl pissed off by my character. During Drama was great. Met Alex, Rashidah, Cheryl and Gavina at the library. Alex and Rashidah were chatting with Auntie Anita. Gotta bad feeling at first. I've pon the previous rehearsal and I lied that I was in malaysia. The real reason is: I woke up late and I don't wanna go to school alone, it's really raining and even if I take the bus, I will still get caught. What's easier is to just say that I'm not home. I stole that excuse from Rashidah.
Ms Joyce came in no later than us. She gave us instructions and so on. I wasn't THAT well-prepared. Papers or pens didn't come along wif me. Im alone. Thx goodness Alex had extras and borrowed from her.
I was in luck indeed. I became the host on 26 November from 3-5pm. Thanks goodness Shirleen was before me, at least I have a demo. But tasks are still tasks, lines are still lines.
"Dear ladies and gentlemen. We are from the Drama Club. At our Drama Club, we learn to speak and perform confidently. We also learn how to use our creativity to act and improvise. On top of that, we had also picked up leadership skills in coordinating events.
Now, our students will perform a mime for you. A mime is an act that involves only actions and no words. If you are the first person who correctly guessed what the mime is about, you will win a small prize. Ready? Let's start."
What's totally challenging is that eye contact with the visitors. Act professionally. I guess it's just too impossible as we're lack of practices. It's just 2 more rehearsals before actual day on 28 Nov. Later performing a short skit. Cheryl the narrator; Fatin and Shirleen the princesses; Gavin the King; Alex and I the princes. We had a good teasing on Gavin later on. He was the one who simply wrote his name as Gavina. Though we had a tiring day just on Drama Ms Joyce treat us on some tibits. Gavina the sicko pervert! He cut a BOOB outta the paper and he wanted to SUCK it... Then Mdm Zhang came to the noticeboard find me. Haizz, went with her to the dunno wad room. Loaded the water bottles and went to the sickbay in the office to pack the goodie bags. File, water bottle, notebook and badge. Ya, that's EVERYTHING in the goodie bag. I DUN WANNA DO IT >.< but thinking that it would be actually added to my CIP hours, I GIVE IN, I GIVE UP.
When going home at the bus-stop, met Ms Joyce. She said that she may be our literature teacher next year! Hooray! Then she said we're doing a book on Billy and...(i forgot) but it's basically about a boy with a passion and talent of dancing. Took 175 with her. Told her about Alice Nine. So handsome...I'm totally enchanted by their charm...hAHA! Yeah, I think that's about it. My handphone batt is running low and I nid to charge it. Shit that damnit I cannot find the charger. No choice. Only can use my brother's phone. He so many phone sehh. But...haizz, nvm.
Afterall, it's only an illusion...