Nothing to post today. Have a change of URL. Dun really feel like bloqqinq. Went researching on eye shapes. Various of shapes....

But none matches mine...I still dunno my eye shape lehh...

I think is...almond-shape? But doesn't look like. So I dunno what type is it. They say big eyes are prettier than small eyes. But I dunno mine. Small? My eyes are small bahh...

Shou-kun's eyes are SOOO BIG!! I so envious of his big big eyes. Nah...maybe not.

Froggy honey's eyes are even bigger. That's why he is called Frog ;p

I like his eyes. So the damn f*cking big lorh.

I have small eyes, real small eyes. So I'm ugly. But eyes are only a part of the face and not the full, so that can't judge the beauty of someone's face, can it?

Yes, it can. Think about it lol(i am talking to myself, no offence). When you look at somebody(unless you are shy and keep looking at the ground), you look at the person's face, right? And what's the center of your attention?

It's not a low self esteem anymore, it's the truth. An ugly bitch with a bad personality. No wonder no guys like me. That explains why I dun even have a single friend, or close friend.

I hate my parents, my mother especially. She's so bias. And only cares for my brother. My father isn't any better either. I just borrowed $20 from her and she is pressing me for the so-called DEBT. Then my father lehh...also the same lahh. My idiot brother made up a mess of the whole living room then anyhow say is I make one then my parents go and anyhow scold me. Idiot. This is something I cannot bear anymore.

This is something that pisses me off most! I feel so great of myself. When he is laughing at the joke he had made, I gave him a real tight slap which he tried to give me back. But I grab hold of his hand and gave him a light slap this time round.

Ohh~~ God just hate me doesn't it? God just wanna see me abused. God made my horoscope one of those which needed love and friends. Love. Needed love. My horoscope says that I needed love. I am not that greedy. Just one person will do. Just one. I guess horoscope is real true. Loved. I feel that too. But I never feel love from anyone. Bullying, that all. Abusing, that's all. God is my friend? Pfft...God just wanna see how I will die in this unloved world. I bet, I can imagine now. Even if I were to die. If I'm standing on top of a building ready to jump, nobody will stop me. Instead, they will be cheering for me to jump down. The excitement. They are excited to see my die in this painful death. I wanna die in a murder case. For that at least I've some preparation few days ago that I am gonna die soon. Being kidnapped. Being kidnapped and stabbed to death because my family refuse to pay the ransom the kidnappers requested as my parents think that it will be a waste of money to give it to the kidnappers to let out a troublemaker or an idiot who knows nothing about anything. So, maybe they are busy spending money on the various TOYS for my brother and a brand new apple laptop for him. The most class one. Top class.

However, they also paid the kidnappers a sum of money. Not part of the ransom. A reward. They paid the kidnappers a sum of money as a reward of getting rid of the useless bum at home. I guess this world. It's just unfair. Shredding tears doesn't help, does it? Everything is just god's doing. God is just so unfair. Even shows where people get bullied in school, their family love them as much. Like Makino Tsukushi from Hana Yori Dango. In the beginning, maybe? Cos later part where Tsukasa started to like her and so does the whole school. Except for the 3 bitches and Sakurako. Being loved in school and hated in family? Chinese Cinderella. Cool. I am neither. Being hated in both places. So what?

God abuse. God abuse. Dying is better than living. Bidding farewell. Try to stop me from dying? Nobody will. Nobody love me at all. I am alone. In this dark cruel world.