I like him, I really do!!!!!!!! But he doesn't. And what's more, he got stead already. I dun feel like naming him, but I think I better do. Ok. He is Jacke. Now Jacke hates me...he really does! He hates me because he thinks that I am trying to harm his girlfriend. And seriously, I really have no intention of doing so!

To Jacke: I am very sorry! I really don't mean to harm Kelle. Can I just say, I am jealous? Of you and Kelle? Even so, I really don't have any intention of harming her or you. Yea...I know. Lies, right? You may think this is a lie. But it's not. Why should I ever harm you. Jacke, I beg you. Please stop hating me, cos it hurts, it's really painful! I understand that you may not like me, but dun hate me either! Please...I can't...I shan't...I won't...harm her...so please...please...please...Because of you...I am not nuts. I am not crazy, I am now stupid and I am now...blind...

I am very tired...very sick...very tired. I am very tired of being sad and emo. It hurts, it really does. For those who has crushes and being rejected or dumped before. I guess you understand my feelings now. For those who had never had crushes or being accepted by all your crushes, I gotta say, you are very very very very very very very lucky. I really dunno how to put this. But so far I've been rejected by most of my crushes, in fact, it's all of them. But I never ever feel this hurt before.

I am so jealous...of Jacke and Kelle. Especially Kelle. Kelle had just known Jacke for 2 weeks and I've know him for about a year. Yet, Kelle has the ability to attract Jacke to stead her...not me. I bet Kelle hates me now. I really dunno what to do, or what to say.

I really dunno how to put my feelings right now. My heartbeat pounded so heavily...and whenever I see him with Kelle, it's like as though a knife just stabbed into my fragile heart. I thought I've lost all my feelings for him already, but I didn't know it was still there. My heart just shattered into a million pieces...I am really heartbroken, my heart breaks...

I gotto say, Laila is 100% right. Confessing like this isn't easy at all. It takes up lots of guts. I finally have the guts to confess this on blog but I still haven't mustered enough courage to tell him face to face.

Now, even songs and music can't cheer me up. There are 4 different types of Love songs:

1. Starting of a relationship(everytime we touch)

2. Processing of a relationship(Miracle)

3. One-sided love(Just the Girl)

4. Breaking up(Ai ni, Still Doll...wait...I dun tink still doll is in...but nvm)

What can I do...? Everything hurts...Nothing I can do to help...Yeah...Life is unfair...And I know that I am the most idiotic person in this world. Love is selfish. Love is unfair.

Sorry readers, but this post, I've been posting about Jacke only. Yea...I've been very selfish, haven't I? This is the first time I've been posting this kinda post. Why lehh? Cos:

1. I can no longer hold back the pain and secret anymore..It hurts...I am so weak and emo...I cannot do it.

2. I haven't mustered enough courage to tell him face to face yet.

I dun tink anybody would wanna continue reading anymore. I guess I should just stop here...Thanks readers, for reading this post, and sorry for wasting your time. This post would at least have taken you 3-5 minutes...sorry. And bye.